Love, we can believe in

hi there. its raining so heavily right now, was caught in the rain during soccer training and on my way home. i think i have a fever, don't really feel that well. oh gosh right now, i just feel like crap, i'm pissed and i just don't get her, what did i ever done wrong? i am really very tired of this, and i don't wanna care anymore. my life is enough of pain and suffering already, i don't need this right now. you are the one i'm supposed to turn to when i have problems not the one who adds on to it. i... shan't continue, it just makes me feel worse. no point dwelling over things that makes me feel like this. it's time like this when you just feel that there isn't any point living on, but to think of it, i have 2 things that give me strength to move on and not do anything silly.
1. my friends and all those that love me.
2. God.
and thats all i need. nothing in this world is worth you taking your own life, there is always someone out there that loves you and care for you, remember that. and if you ever feel like killing yourself for someone that you love and have hurted you then think again, cause it's not worth dying for someone that makes you feel so lousy and bad. anyways, i think i better move to another topic, i guess you probably thinking i'm weird. okay so, soccer training was fun today, it's been a long time since i felt so connected with the team in the game, and suprisingly no one yelled and argued in the match today, we just encourage each other and moved on, i think its so much better this way, it saves time and also make the team very united and determine to win. that's 1 thing i learnt today, encouragement is way better than arguements! yup. so i gonna get some rest now, really feeling very sick right now. thanks for coming. take care. bye.

-it's not having what you want, it's wanting what you have.