Probably one of the hardest thing in life is waiting. I have took up several part-time jobs since my secondary school days, ranging from many different fields in the industry. But in my opinion, the hardest and most difficult job I have worked as is being a waiter.

I still remember I was still in secondary school and it was during the holidays. At that time I've never worked before, and when I heard from my dad about a job opening I just jumped on it immediately. Hoping to learn some skills and experience about the working life.

Being a waiter was my first ever job. Well it was a humbling experience. At first I thought, "No problem! How difficult can it get?" I was wrong. It was not easy at all.

The tough thing about being a waiter is:

1) You must stand for hours waiting (and be still)

2) Stay alert and sensitive at all times

3) Endure criticism

Sometimes in life, we too need to wait like a waiter. Serve like a waiter. Endure like a waiter. It is a tough job. Who likes to wait? In our society today, we want things NOW. INSTANT solutions, Instant noodles. We like things fast, that's why we have FAST food. Even if it isn't good for us, we rather take it, than wait. Nobody likes waiting. Many people lose their cool because the wait is too long. They can't take it anymore. They curse. They complain. They murmur.

We can't even wait 40 minutes in a queue without a "Tsk!" and a frown on our face to show our dissatisfaction. The issue is not with the wait, the issue is with our attitude.

The wait is a test to see our reaction. Waiting isn't bad if we stop being negative about the process. Wait with expectancy. Focus on the positive. Maximize your time while waiting. Before you know it, the wait is over and you get your goods, or accomplish your task.

It is worth the wait.

-Good things comes to those who wait.

Have always loved this story. Remember you are never alone.

Dear God,

Give me the strength to do what is right.

Show me the way when there seems to be no way.

You said, when I am weak You are strong.

So God, help me, save me, have mercy.

"A broken spirit and a contrite heart,

this Oh God, You will not despise."

In the trial, I will remember You.

Though I can't see the hand, but I will trust Your heart.

I know all things work out good, for those who love You and are called according to

Your purpose.

Wow! It's been awhile. Can't believe my last post was actually in March. I told myself last year that I would make a commitment to reflect on my life lessons and write(type) it down here at least once every month. I guess that did not really work out. I realize how overwhelmed and busy I was over the past 6 months, that I hardly had anytime to even take a breather.

Anyway, I had an awesome time during cell group meeting today with Kenneth, Bradley and Corrina. We started early today at around 3.45pm and hence we had time to watch a movie in my living room- To Save a Life. It was a very powerful movie, it touched on many issues about life. (Highly recommend you to watch it)

One particular issue that was brought out in the show was about young people taking their own lives. Well, it is a very real issue today. Suicidal rates are on a high. Just last year alone in 2009, there were 401 suicide cases in Singapore, yet another 10% increase compared to the previous year.

That struck me, 401. These are not just numbers. These are lives. That means, every other day there is probably one or two person ending their lives, and with them are many more people contemplating whether they should do the same. Some take unprescribed drugs and overdose themselves, some slit their wrists, some choose to take a leap (not of faith but of fear) off a building or onto a train track.

Statistics show a record high increase of youths between 13-19 years of age who choose to end their lives. Many blame these to on the high stress level. "OH it is the education systems!" While it is not entirely wrong to say stress is a factor that adds to that final decision for one to end his/her life. I would say there is a deeper reason to why a person would make that ultimatum decision. Out of all the reasons, I believe people give up on life when they can't live up to the expectations of others/themselves and don't see a purpose for living anymore.

Well, if you are one of those who had thoughts of ending your life before, or still are, I hope you read on.

The truth is, at some point in our lives, we all ask ourselves one question, "What am I here for?"

And to be honest, I can't answer that question for you. All of us are here for a different purpose. You've just got to live life one step at a time, and you will eventually discover what your true purpose is.

"BUT WHAT ABOUT NOW?"

Yes, right now, it may seem meaningless. Things may not be going the way you want it to. Your relationships may be in a mess. You have friends, but yet you seem to always feel alone. You've tried and you've failed. You were told "You can't make it in LIFE" or "You are good for NOTHING". And you actually believed them, because those words came from the ones you've loved and trusted the most.

Well right now, I am going to tell you the truth. You may or may not have heard this, and you may or may not believe this. But what I am about to say to you, I hope you know every word is true:

"You are valuable. You are precious. You can make it. You are made for great things. You are blessed with great gifts and talent. You are loved. You have a future and a hope. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Because that would be a lie."

Don't give up now, there is more. And yes, there is always light at the end of the tunnel. As dark and hopeless the situation may be right now, there is still a way out. And no it is not by giving up on your life. It is by giving more. Trying harder. Believing in your heart. You can do it.

And yes there will still be times that things don't work out and life treats you unfair. But remember, the beauty of grace is that it makes life unfair. At the end it is always our choice how we react to the circumstances that surrounds us. We can choose to give up, or we can choose to press on.

Don't value your life by what you can accomplish, or by dollars and cents. No, value life for the very breath that you take.

While, it is common to celebrate and party on new year's eve and do count down. One thing I find myself doing year after year during this period of time is reflecting on the year that has past and visualizing and setting goals for myself in the new year.